The Simplest Truth

 

"Cultivate the habit of being grateful for every good thing that comes to you, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to your advancement, you should include all things in your gratitude."

 

— Ralph Waldo Emerson

I have been feeling very thankful today...I am not sure what prompted this sudden sense of gratitude but I felt the need to articulate it in some form. Here are a few things that are making me happy and thankful today.

• The current lessons that I am learning. 
• The fact that I am in control of what my days look like and that I am given the gift of helping this company succeed. 
• That every day I get to start over,  yesterday was hard,  I didn't have any motivation and my head hurt.  This morning I woke up, felt better and made today a  better day. 
• The unexpected kindness of others.  I received an email yesterday that did wonders for my heart. It was sweet and encouraging and exactly what I needed on that hard day. 
• The wonderful and relaxing weekend that I shared with my Best Friend.  We had a wonderful time exploring the botanical gardens and just enjoying being together.

I think that these posts will be a little more often,  I need to remember the good things that happen everyday.

I have decided to join my friend Amelia in the Project 365.  Essentially I am going to post one picture a day on my blog.  She started six days ago so I am going to post my first 6 pictures in this post.  I am hoping that this will inspire me to use my camera everyday and I am going to try to post something from that day but  I may at times post pictures from the past.  There isn't allot of inspiration at my desk.  So here are the first Six.

I was emailing with a friend the other day and we were talking about having a casual style that allows you to look put together without seeming overdressed.   I hadn't played on Polyvore in a very long time and I thought that I might try to put together the outfit that I suggested that she wear to some upcoming event. 

Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.

~Epicurus quotes

I am not really good at putting my thoughts and feelings into words. This is probably really surprising to those who think that they know me best but to those who are often on the receiving end of my anger filled verbal jabs are not surprised at all. I tend to redirect my anger and hurt into other areas and then release them on those that are closest to me. Which is why I allow my work to stress me out. Thinking about work and everything that I can’t control in our business saves me the pain and hurt of thinking about what is really bothering me.

Anyway, I had a hard week last week. Maybe the hardest emotionally that I have ever had in my life. This time it wasn’t medication or my wacky hormones. It was down to the core pain, unlike I have ever felt (or allowed myself) to feel before. I saw myself heading down that familiar path of lashing out and being grumpy. I prayed almost continuously to have a content heart and to remember to love above all else. I treasured the phone calls from the women in my life and allowed my husband to hug me and I truly tried to listen to him instead of getting frustrated. And you know what? God used this week to strengthen me in ways that I could not have even imagined. This weekend I had some really good quality time with good friends just talking and laughing. I was honest about the pain I felt but we didn’t dwell on it, I cried a little and we laughed allot. We spent time outside. I slept in and heard a wonderful sermon. For the first time I didn’t shy away and pretend that I was ok but in spite of it I feel strong and sure of our future. This whole process is painful but I know that in the end “He has a plan for me and its His best for me” Jer. 29:11.