The Simplest Truth

Over the weekend there was a comment made about some undone chores in my house. In typical me fashion I got my feelings hurt and dwelled on those few words.  After they sat in my mind and on my heart for 24 hours. I went directly to B and lamented on everything that I do on a daily basis.  How hard that I work and all the hats I wear everyday and I made sure to tell him that those chores were undone because I couldn't fathom actually getting anything else accomplished every day with all the experiences our daughter was having and all the deals I was closing at work.  So yeah  that was a fun end to our weekend.

This morning I woke with resolve to keep a better house I made my to do list and in my Cozi app .  I did my mandatory two loads of laundry and organized my pantry.  I made dinner for tonight and I even closed a deal.  I also took sometime to sit out on my porch and I thought about my selfish childlike behaviour last night.  Here is the truth,  those chores weren't done because I chose to spend another 30 mins outside with L or I made a few work calls or B and I met our friends for a fun dinner out.   I don't think that the world will end because laundry goes unfolded for a few days. I thought about what I wanted our home to look like, smell like,  feel like and look like.  I want it to have personality,  I want friends to be comfortable.  I want it to be filled with laughter,  songs and creations.   In order for those things to happen I have to let go of my people pleasing perfectionism.  It doesn't matter if things aren't done completely if I am accomplishing whats important for our life! 

So as I had this epiphany I recalled the above sign that I had pinned on Pinterest.   My Monday prayer was to provide for my family a life  that is truly lived.   That might mean those clothes stay in the dryer and those emails go unchecked for a few more days. 

For some reason I feel the need to give life to my thoughts today.  I woke up earlier than B and LL today. I have found that my days are smoother when I have a few moments to just be me in the morning,  before I am wife, mama and recruiter.   Today I have felt, I don't know, overwhelmed maybe?  I think overwhelmed is most fitting and I am overwhelmed (in a  good way) by so many of my life's blessings.

 Its Easter Sunday and I am blown away by the Love that Jesus has for me, a love great enough to bring him back from the tomb.  I sat on the couch earlier with my coffee listening to old school Christian music and I felt in awe of my Lord.  At the same time I feel such conviction,  I think Jesus is moving in my life.  I pray that I am right and that I can be brave enough to see what that movement means.

We celebrated LL's first birthday yesterday and so many of the people I loved came to the park to celebrate with us,  I took a moment to stand back and just watch.  It was overwhelming to see how loved she (we) are and by so many. I can't get over the fact that we are surrounded by a beautiful tribe of wonderful people.   SO BLESSED

I was trying to find some quotes today to sum up how I was feeling...these were the ones that spoke to me.

The resurrection gives my life meaning and direction and the opportunity to start over no matter what my circumstances.  ~Robert Flatt


Easter says you can put truth in a grave, but it won't stay there.  ~Clarence W. Hall


It is the hour to rend thy chains,
The blossom time of souls.  ~Katherine Lee Bates


The joyful news that He is risen does not change the contemporary world.  Still before us lie work, discipline, sacrifice.  But the fact of Easter gives us the spiritual power to do the work, accept the discipline, and make the sacrifice.  ~Henry Knox Sherrill


Could life so end, half told; its school so fail?
Soul, soul, there is a sequel to thy tale!
~Robert Mowry Bell


Easter is the demonstration of God that life is essentially spiritual and timeless.  ~Charles M. Crowe


Tomb, thou shalt not hold Him longer;
Death is strong, but Life is stronger;
Stronger than the dark, the light;
Stronger than the wrong, the right...
~Phillips Brooks, "An Easter Carol"


Let every man and woman count himself immortal.  Let him catch the revelation of Jesus in his resurrection.  Let him say not merely, "Christ is risen," but "I shall rise."  ~Phillips Brooks